Another disappointment

I was spotting yesterday, and menstrual starts this morning.

Thus, another early miscarriage is confirmed. Erm... may be it's something called chemical pregnancy. Whatever it's named!

I'm frustrated, disappointed, sad......

Though I had been prepared for the worst since we came back from the gyn, still it hurts!

Pregnant???

I have been getting faint positive since 26.11.09 - 2 days before period dues. A total of 4 tests were done every other morning all resulting faint positives.

Aren't you happy for me? After trying for few months, finally, getting a positive (faint positive), hubby and I had been overwhelmed with the news for the past few days.

It is only 2 days past my period due, but since it's been a real nightmare for me having a D&C for the past miscarriage, we decide to visit the gyn earlier, just in case.

However, the visit to the gyn made me worried! Nothing appeared in ultrasound (Ok, we couldn't expect anything for 4 weeks pregnant), no double line showed in the test given in clinic (Ok, since it's still early, second urine may not have enough HCG to trigger the lines).

Thus, a blood test for Beta HCG is required to confirm pregnancy. We return to get the report by noon. The result is 18.8mIU/mL. The gyn seems a bit uncertain about my pregnancy, and I'm appointed to be back a week later (7.12.09).

18.8mIU/mL is really very low. It can't be able to trigger any lines for a 20mIU/mL test (which is suppose to be the most sensitive test in the market). Then how come I could have 4 cheapie tests getting faint positive??? Is it a symptom leading to a miscarriage???

Keeping your finger crossed for me! Pray hard that no more miscarriage.

Spotting at 11 dpo

I'm having some spotting yesterday @ 11dpo. As of today, no more spotting! I have been waking up around 4am everyday for 2 weeks and some cramping on 8dpo - 10dpo.

It's 4 days before period due, so hopefully this is implantation bleeding, not early menstrual!

Keeping my finger crossed!

Basal body temperature charting

Until now, it has been 6 months past D&C. Hubby and I had been trying since 3 months past D&C. No luck though.

Being a desperate wife, I search for tips to get pregnant faster. lol! You know? That's getting more and more people offering my mother in-law on how to get pregnant! One of them suggest to avoid cold drinks and eat "bak foong yun" after menstrual for 7 days. One told me to eat "Eu Yan Sang bak foong yun". And one told me to go for a gyn. *sigh*

Pressure coming from all around!!!

So I bought a basal thermometer and started my charting from the beginning of this cycle. Through charting our basal body temperature (BBT), we could know our body better and recognize our signs of ovulation. BBT is your body temperature at rest (wake up time). BBT before ovulation is at a lower range while BBT stays in the higher range throughout the luteal (post-ovulation) phase until the next cycle begins. BBT stays high if there is a pregnancy.

Hopefully through this charting method I'll conceive soon enough.

Hope of the month gone

It's another hope gone! But still I'm feeling dizzy all the time though the rashes are going off and I still woke up 5am this morning!

Seems like I need to go for the doctor, but what to tell him? I suppose he'll asks me to drink more water and sleep more. No cure! So I decided NOT to visit the doctor, let it be! I blame the weather and the surrounding air, they could simply change from extreme hot air to heavy rain!

What to do? Nothing could do!

Good thing about this hope gone is that I could go for the concert on 12th Sept without too much fear as pregnant women are prone to have high chances of getting A(H1N1). But I'll buy N95 before going for the concert also! Scared to die!!!

Sleepless nights

I had been experiencing sleepless nights starting last week. I could woke up around 4am for nothing! Yup, it's indeed no reason for waking up. I'm not thirsty, no urge for the toilet, not too cold.

After the woke at around 4am, I'm no longer able to go back to sleep. I'll have to stay awake until the daylight shows.

Why???

Skin problem arised again!

Rashes again! This time they appeared at my wrists and hands. I'm feeling annoyed by the itchiness, making me acting like a monkey!

Anyhow, I must wait until I confirm preggy or not before going for the skin specialist for the problem. That means I have to tolerate with the itchiness until end of the month. OMG, it's a hard time for me! I can only use ice cubes for temporary relieve of the itchiness. *pity me*

Time flies... why not now?

Feeling unwell

Starting from the beginning of this week, I'm always stay upstairs spending most of my time in shop SLEEPING!

I'm not the kind of people whom like sleeping that much but my head seems don't allow me to stay up right, lying down somehow makes me feel better.

There are few more symptoms which make me suspect that I'm pregnant but too soon indeed! Not until 27th July that my period due. No no no, I must be thinking too much. But I do hope I'm pregnant.

Okay, I'll wait to see how is it going on - pregnant or not???

Gaining weight!!!

Why am I keep putting on weight without consuming extra food???

The possible reason:

• Genes. An underlying tendency to obesity may be the result of our genes. People who generally have little problem controlling their weight seem to have a precisely tuned appetite.
• Physical inactivity.People who lead a physically active life are less likely to gain weight than those who spend most of their day sitting in front of a computer or TV, or in the car.

The "genes" matters, I can't do anything about it! My mum and grandma are having the same problem too, putting on weight from bottom! No cure!!!

For the second reason, physical inactivity. I'll go jogging early in the morning once the haze issue settled. Inhaling too much haze while jogging wouldn't do you any good, right?

Come again?

I'm having another menses 2 weeks after the first day of last menses! That means 1 week after I cleared the last period, I'm getting another period! OMG!

Why so troublesome one?

Cramping....

Wow, first menses after d&c is much much more painful than previous menses!

This menses comes with a lot of cramping that last for more than 4 days. I've been exhausted by the pain since I refused to take pain killer!

What a miserable menses I'm having? And still it is ON! When is it going to give me a halt?

First month after d&c

It has been a month since the d&c treatment - a nightmare for me. Thanks god, I'm now healthily recovered!

Two months to go before trying to conceive again. I'm counting down again!